I understand how you feel, but probably not at your level.
IIRC, President Hinckley's dad told him "to forget himself and get to work".
If you're not currently employed, get a job. Better yet, finish your education. Find a hobby; do some service. Bottom line is get into doing something that you enjoy; stay engaged (no pun intended).
They'll be plenty of other girls to date, so that you can find the right one for you to marry and have a family.
Live life with no regrets (I'm still learning from that, since I have plenty of 'em...)
